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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 13, 2012 2:06:59 GMT -5
"That sounds lovely, Drake." Serena would by lying if she said that she wasn't tired, too. Early pregnancy was brutal on her body this time around; she just felt exhausted, fatigued, nauseous, everything! She didn't want to complain which was why she was trying to have sex with him.
"I just want to lay here and listen to Baby Mama." She pecked him gently on the cheek before yawning, "I'm tired... I wish I didn't have work today. My coworkers are bitches and I don't like them. They aren't nice people and they make fun of Carver and they all want to have sex with you. They think you settled for me."
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 13, 2012 2:12:11 GMT -5
Drake was snapped out of his cute cuddly mode when Serena mentioned she was unhappy at work. He had been into her salon a few times to visit or bring Carver for a haircut, and he always thought the ladies working there were nice. He had no clue that they thought he was attractive, or that he was just settling for Serena. He was even more horrified to hear that they made fun of Carver because of her hearing disability. Siting up, he frowned, then put his head in his hands, visibly upset.
Sitting there, he thought for a moment. He couldn't believe what he had just heard; Serena was an amazing person, and for her to be unhappy in an environment she spent time in every day was upsetting to him. "Serena, you aren't going to work tomorrow. I am going to walk in there and talk to your boss. You quit, Rena, you can't let them do that to you, or me, or Carver. You... you want to go back to school. I've got money saved up for our family, we can get you into Tourney Ville or something of the like. You'll take classes, find a better career path, and be happy when you go back to work after having the babies. Don't argue with me about this, either, Serena, I want you to be happy and I won't let you walk in that place again for you to be bullied. If it takes me coming to babysit you, don't you doubt that I will."
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 13, 2012 2:31:11 GMT -5
"Only people in school get bullied; adults don't get bullied." Serena mumbled before deciding to tell him what she had been hearing every single day since she started this job over a year ago; her coworkers had never really been kind to her. She cleared her throat and began her story in a shaky tone.
"They say that you are too hot for a girl like me and that I should have saved you the trouble by aborting Carver because she's deformed since she can't hear and they said that Carver is deaf because I was raped during my pregnancy." She paused to look away from him at the wall because she couldn't say this while looking at him, "Apparently I deserved to get raped because I'm.... I don't even know and that they feel sorry for you and the guy who did it because you two are so desperate that you would actually have sex with someone like me." She was trying hard to not get emotional but it was hell at work sometimes and it was time that he knew it.
She was going to say more, really, she could go on and on forever about their rudeness but her voice cracked and she was crying before she could stop herself. She'd been holding it all in for so long that everything just came pouring out like a dam breaking. "T-t-t-t-they said that I-I-I-I..." She couldn't even finish her sentence! She was absolutely hysterical.
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 13, 2012 2:42:45 GMT -5
Drake was aghast; she had never seemed so upset over work. Not once had she complained, even though she had worked there for over a year. Why hadn't she brought it up? Horrified, he pulled Serena closer to him, cradling her against his chest. Softly, he ran his fingers through her hair, trying to hush her sobs with soothing, "Shh, shh," sounds. Finally, when she had calmed a little, he gave her a kiss on the forehead.
"They're... they're horrible, Serena. You can't listen to a word they say, either." He sighed, frowning. Why would someone be so mean to someone as sweet as Serena Adams? "I am not to hot for you - you're too kind, and gracious, and amazingly beautiful for me. Carver is the daughter any mother and father could wish for, but they just can't see it because they're ignorant. 'It takes a man falling sick by the wayside to see that nine tenths of the world a Samaritan, and the other tenth too stupid or too ignorant to be,'" he quoted. "You are working with part of that tenth, Serena. They are too ignorant to realize that picking on you does nothing, and that you are happy at home where you are loved for who you are. It is not your fault that you were raped, or that Carver was born deaf. That's my genetics that made her deaf, and I honestly do not think of it as a deformity or struggle for her. She is the best daughter, a perfect little girl."
Lifting her chin with his finger, he looked into her eyes, sadness in his dark pupils. "Serena, your coworkers are the worst, and it sucks. You have to know that they are too mistaken, too caught up with themselves to realize that you have the life that they should strive for, not strike down. I love you, Serena, with all of my heart." He kissed her slowly, passionately. He wanted to take her pain away with a kiss, and wished that it would work that way, but he didn't think it could.
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 13, 2012 3:12:35 GMT -5
Drake was the one thing that could calm her down, Serena just felt safest when she was in his arms like he could somehow make everything in her life better just by being there. "Why do people never like me Drake?" She didn't have a lot of friends even though she tried to be kind to everyone. She wasn't a malicious person nor could she ever do anything cruel to another human being no matter the reasoning behind it. She hadn't even fought to put her rapist behind bars; she'd actually forgiven him and realized that he probably had a hard life that lead him to be where he was today. She couldn't believe for one second that someone suddenly turned evil. Evil people aren't made; evil people are created by a monster who strives to get inside of them. It's like the monster under the bed only he takes the shape of someone close to you like a best friend or a mother or father in Drake's case. She was still crying but it'd lessened to a quiet whimper by the time that Drake finished speaking to her, how did he do this? How did he always know just what to say? She knew that his words couldn't make everything all better but that didn't mean that hearing it didn't help because it honestly did. It made things seem clearer like she was genuinely cared about by the only people who mattered to her i. e Drake, Carver and to a lesser extent Indiana. She let out a heavy sigh and wiped her eyes, "Wanna hear the worst?" She looked down at her hands and shook her head slowly before deciding that she was really going to just let everything out. She was going to let him know exactly what she put up with and what finally pushed her over the edge in her decision about wanting to quit her job and return to college.
"My boss is just as bad. She tells me every single day that I'm too fat and too ugly to work in the front so I've been working in the way back since my second day and she thinks that it's just so funny to tell me about how useless I am at my job and how she'd fire me if she wasn't so desperate for employees. She'll do it all day and she sends me emails and texts and voice mails. It's just... It's too much and I can't take it. I can't go back and I know it's selfish but I can't do this forever. I can't go to work and listen to them say that Carver shouldn't be alive and that someone should kill us both to take you out of your miserable life and then they can show you what a real woman is like." She somehow managed to not burst into tears after saying that.
"Drake.... I can't.... I can't........ I can't.... I love you and I love our family but do you know how horrible I feel after work each day? I know you work harder and that I'm being silly because it's just words but I feel like shit after work. I feel like I'm useless and like they're right."
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 13, 2012 16:16:12 GMT -5
"Shh, Serena, don't try to talk," He held her closer to him, letting her head rest against his chest. He was practically shaking with the anger he felt inside. The injustice of it all was killing him; why would someone do this? He had seen physical scars on his wife before, from other people - why was it that now he was seeing the emotional scars inflicted upon her? Leaning his head against hers, he petted her hair, murmuring into it.
"Serena, I don't want you to go back to that place, ever again. You're quitting and that's final, no if's, and's, or but's. Block your boss's number from your phone, and never walk near that salon again. You don't deserve this, Serena, you have a loving home and you need to find a place where you can work that is safe and just as loving as home is. Well, I mean, not too loving, but comfortable for you, where you feel happy." He kissed her head again. "Serena, I want you to go back to school, I really do."
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 13, 2012 16:53:59 GMT -5
"I want to quit but I feel bad because you're going to have to give up so much for that to happen and you'll have to work more." Serena sniffled as she snuggled her head deeper into his chest. He and Carver loved her and that was all that mattered; what else could she possibly need in the world? She had a gorgeous little family and she was pregnant with twins! That was enough for her. "I wish I could stay home, I wish that we had the kind of money where I could be a stay at home mother and home school Carver so she can have real world adventures like traveling." She placed her hand over her tiny stomach and let out a noise that was a cross between a sigh and a whimper.
"I would love to stay home with the twins when they're little and just really enjoy them as babies but I know how stressful that would be for you since you'd have to work more to support our large family." She wished that she hadn't given up her trust fund sometimes but a marriage to Drake was worth losing her family, right? Right.
She didn't need a family that didn't approve of the man that she loved so she gave all of that up for him.
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 13, 2012 17:54:04 GMT -5
"Serena, don't feel bad. You can't go through this anymore, I won't let you. It's potentially a danger to you and to our babies." He paused. "I would love for that to happen, too, but it can't last forever. When the babies are old enough, you have to go back to work. I make a lot of money, but not that much. I wish I could fulfill all your wishes, baby, but I can't. I'm so sorry."
(If Its on the wrong account, Sorry)
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 13, 2012 18:44:05 GMT -5
"I know, I know.... I just wish that things were different sometimes. I feel like we've worked so hard to get where we are and yet we still can't afford to do the one thing that I want to do more than anything. I want to go to nursing school because I know that I'd like the job but I would absolutely love to stay home more than anything else." Serena mumbled before she pulled a blanket off of her, it was hot! Or was it just her? She was always hot these days even with the air conditioning on full blast.
"Is it hot in here to you? I wanna take a nice cold shower... Wanna join?" She actually didn't mean that sexually though it did sound a little like she did.
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 13, 2012 18:55:21 GMT -5
Taking Serena's hand, he helped her off the bed and began to walk to the shower. Once inside the bathroom, he turned on the water and sat on the edge of the sink, smiling at her. "Well if you work from home or something... I know you want to be a nurse but maybe there's something else you'd like to do. Maybe you can work from home while the babies are young and then when they get to be about Carver's age, you can be a nurse."
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 14, 2012 2:56:55 GMT -5
Drake had come home early, before Serena was home from running errands. He wanted to do something to surprise her, since Carver was out with Indiana and Scout, at the park. Going upstairs, he figured she was done with being a sexy BDSM girl. He knew she had a vibrator in her nightstand, and he knew that maybe she would want to do something with that instead. So, he headed upstairs and searched for it. However, what he found was not what he was expecting.
There was the vibrator and a few nicknacks but... behind that. A leather bound book. He thought it was her diary and he didn't want to open it but it was calling to him. Reading what was inside... all the calorie counting and all the exercise logs. It was terrible to see. She was anorexic, or she had the tendencies, he knew it.
When she got inside, he called for her, panic in his voice. "SERENA! I need you upstairs, NOW!"
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 14, 2012 3:10:05 GMT -5
Serena didn't even have time to put the groceries away before Drake called her upstairs, she could hear the obvious panic in his tone and worried that something serious could be wrong. Did he fall? Could he not get up? Where was life alert when you need it? "I'm coming, baby!" She called up in an equally panicked voice as she placed the bags on the kitchen counter. She raced up the stairs as fast as she could, panting by the time that she reached their bedroom. Her eyes drifted to her diary in his hands, what was he doing with that...? She could only imagine what he was thinking after reading that.
Her charts.
Her paragraphs on how good it felt to feel hungry.
Everything in that book was highly private and she was scared of what he thought now. "Yes baby?" She asked innocently although she knew exactly what he wanted to talk about. She was trying to stall this as long as possible. "What's wrong?" She knew but she didn't want to think about the fact that he had just discovered some deep dark place inside of her. She had such issues with control these days and she felt like the only thing that she could control was her body and her weight. She couldn't control her career, her daughter's inability to hear, anything. She felt like her life was sprawling down the drain before her eyes.
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 14, 2012 3:18:26 GMT -5
"What's wrong?" Drake snapped. He sat up quickly and walked towards her. "What's wrong is this. What is this?" He flapped the book around in the air while talking, then held it in front of her face and pointed to a paragraph. "'I managed to only eat a salad today, and half an apple. I love the feel of my stomach growling, the groan it makes against my rib cage. It feels amazing to be empty; and this is easy to hide, too, I only need breath mints on occasion to stop any odd breath.'" He quoted, the anger and fear and confusion flashing through his eyes.
Dropping the book on the ground, he took her hands in his, looking into her eyes with an intense gaze. "Serena, are you anorexic? You need help - that, that book is proof, you're going down a bad path here, baby." He shook his head, afraid for her. "Did you know that if you keep this up, you could kill the babies? You could become infertile and already with the little amounts you've been eating, you're starving your own children. How could you, Serena?"
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 14, 2012 3:27:13 GMT -5
His clear anger wasn't helping Serena at all! She didn't know what to say to make this better so she managed a weak, "I'm not anorexic! I'm not... I'm not starving our babies! I'm eating perfectly enough to keep the babies healthy." She couldn't help but feel offended at his accusation that she was harming their unborn children. "I love the babies and you know that." She crossed her arms and looked away from him. She was visibly upset by this already. She couldn't believe that he thought that she was anorexic! She could stop anytime that she wanted to! "It's not that bad, Drake, it's not an eating disorder if I control it. I control it, it's not controlling me!" She assured him desperately as she took the diary from him and showed him a carefully written chart, "See? See what I ate yesterday, that's plenty!" - Breakfast - five cashews, 1/2 cup orange juice
- Lunch - N/A
- Small side salad without dressing
She seemed so sure that it was enough food for a pregnant woman when it wasn't even enough for Carver!
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 14, 2012 3:29:51 GMT -5
Drake could have screamed, he was so upset. What was wrong with her? Crossing his arms, he mimicked Serena, glaring her down. "You're hurting our children, Serena, why can't you see that? What you ate yesterday is barely enough to keep you going, let alone our children!" He snapped. "I'm worried about you, is all," his tone softened slightly as he sat on the edge of the bed, his head in his hands. "I don't understand this."
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