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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 26, 2012 0:31:45 GMT -5
Drake laughed at her penguin joke and pulled her closer. He enjoyed this moment; standing in an ice cold room, practically a freezer, with his arm around his wife's shoulders. His hand was against her swollen stomach, where two babies were asleep and waiting to be born. She was wearing his leather jacket and the ring he had given her on their wedding day. He loved seeing that on her finger every day; it was like a reminder that he had everything he could ever ask for. "You're like my baby penguin," he held her closer, leaning his head against the top of her's. "I will never let you go."
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 26, 2012 0:42:32 GMT -5
Serena loved wearing his jacket almost as much as she loved wearing her ring, how could she not? He was so opposed to her wearing that damn jacket in the past that it felt nice to be able to just slip it on whenever she wanted to. "I love being your baby penguin." She knew how strange that sounded but it was nice, "Did you know some penguins mate for life? I bet we'd be the ones that did.... The penguin version of infinity." She giggled as she looked over at the penguins in front of them.
They all looked so content despite being trapped in that one area for the rest of their lives. None of them seemed like they minded the fact that they would forever be in that one cage and nowhere else, no matter how deep that they swam or how hard they tried to fly. They never would.
She use to think that the opposite would be true for Drake and that one day he'd realize he could fly away and never return, possibly take Carver with him and just go live life the way that he wanted to, free with no commitments but now.. now she didn't worry about him leaving.
He loved her when she was nine months pregnant with James and Jack and irritable as fuck, he loved her every morning when she was nauseous and couldn't get out of bed with this pregnancy and he loved her when she had her crazy desire to keep everything organized perfectly. "So, my therapist said the most bizarre thing, he seems to think I'm OCD."
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 26, 2012 12:31:10 GMT -5
Drake smiled at her little penguin comment and took her hand, leading her away from the fuzz balls of adorableness. They still had to see the polar bears, to take pictures for Carver. They were going to bring her back to the zoo sometime, but today was "mommy and daddy day" so she was left at home to hang out with Indiana and James. "OCD?" he asked, snapping a few shots of some polar bears playing in the water.
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 26, 2012 13:08:11 GMT -5
"Yeah! He seems to think I have some of the tendencies but I don't think I agree because well I'm not crazy." Serena nodded rapidly as if trying to convince herself a little too.
She adjusted her shirt and cuddled closer to his body, "You don't think he's right.. do you?" She seemed genuinely concerned and interested in his honest answer. Why would she want him to lie? She wanted to know if he believed for one second that there was something wrong with her like that. Would it be a tragedy if he did? No. She would believe it more from him than her therapist.
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 26, 2012 18:55:30 GMT -5
"First off, Serena..." Drake paused, putting his hand on her lower back and finishing off a few animal crackers as they watched the polar bears. "OCD doesn't mean crazy and ... well, maybe he is right." Drake didn't want to upset his wife, but the topic was unavoidable. Ever since he started getting more serious with Serena, he noticed all her quirks. Though he didn't label them as OCD at first, it sort of added up. She was obsessed with perfection - it even carried into physical perfection, too. Carver's hair had to be combed straight or put up in a pony tail in the exact center of her head, or Serena would have to fix it. James had to have his blanket facing the right way so that the name showed at the top of the bed. She even put herself up to this "neat and orderly" standard - always looking nice, fresh, clean and happy, even if it was a bad day.
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 26, 2012 19:18:37 GMT -5
Serena frowned though she did trust that he wouldn't say such a thing if it wasn't true... Who would ever joke about something so serious? She shrugged and let out a heavy sigh, "I don't know... Maybe I am, maybe I do fit a lot of the things but I just... I don't know how I would handle that."
She looked up at him almost helplessly and tried her hardest not to let the tears flood her eyes. She failed miserably, of course. She wasn't hysterical but there were tears falling down her cheeks. "I just wish that I was like everyone else and that I could do things without having to make sure it's all perfect and I just can't... I can't just let things be disorganized or... wrong. It just makes me physically ill sometimes."
She'd never told him that before.
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 26, 2012 20:31:55 GMT -5
Drake sighed and held her closer, his eyes looking off into the distance. He wasn't seeing the playful bears, however. In his mind's eye, he was staring blankly at the things in his house that had never jumped out at him before. How organized their pantry was, how everything was labeled by name or use, how Carver was practically trained to put things back where she found them even though she was only five. His side of the closet was never a mess, even though he left clothes on the ground and shirts sliding off the hangers - he always assumed she put things right just to be helpful. Now... it was something she couldn't help but do.
Thinking about the disorder itself wasn't that bothering to Drake, though. It was just OCD, right? They could live with it, right? He and Carver and James would just have to be careful about leaving things tidy, to keep her from having to compulsively fix them. He snapped out of his thoughts to kiss her on the forehead and lead her from the polar bears towards the sea lion section, without even thinking about it. "It's ok, Serena... OCD isn't a big deal, I know it's a problem but we can work around it. Besides, being normal is over-rated." He shrugged.
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Post by Serena Adams on Aug 26, 2012 20:41:02 GMT -5
Serena felt better after hearing that not that she really expected him to be upset about it, why would he be? She couldn't control it and she needed his help which ,as her husband, he should provide. She knew that she could depend on him and that was nice. "I know that it's not anything that we can't learn to deal with but it's scary hearing that kind of thing, you know?" She didn't want to leave him out anymore and deal with her thoughts alone.
Why? Because that's how people get to the extreme and consider taking their own life and she sure as hell didn't want to ever get that lonely that she felt like having no life at all was better than the life that she had.
She glanced at the sea lions and smiled weakly before looking up at her husband, "Can we go get dinner? I'm hungry.... You know what sounds awesome right now? Applebee's!"
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Post by Drake Wade Adams on Aug 26, 2012 20:46:59 GMT -5
"I know..." When she mentioned going to dinner, he shrugged and started walking again, swinging their joined hands between them like they were little kids skipping off to school. He liked having a day just to be her best friend again. Most of the time, it was a full time job being a father, instead of being a father and a husband and a friend and a lover. It seemed as if there was only time for one occupation know a days. "Sure, Applebee's."
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